Sakurako Hino Posted March 2, 2005 Share Posted March 2, 2005 I was going to ask this in my journal, but I thought a more better forum would be here. After all, it is not just about me.It's about the spiritual aspect. Lately I've just been finding a need. You know, that little part of your soul that wants more than the physical. I want to understand what it is to be here, now. Who I am, and who I will be.Thing is, material things have become less important to me all of a sudden. Maybe it's that near-death experience I had, or maybe it's just realizing there's more to the world than what's before my eyes.Anyone else got this feeling? I'm hoping it's not just me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gerald Haney Posted March 2, 2005 Share Posted March 2, 2005 I've got lots of spiritual feelings. I just don't feel the need to trot them out for show and tell. Personally, what I feel is what I feel. Other people's opinions on the Big Questions don't really matter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tarot Posted March 2, 2005 Share Posted March 2, 2005 Bleh.When people start talking about their spiritual erections it just doesn't seem special any more. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jager Posted March 2, 2005 Share Posted March 2, 2005 Endeavor, I suggest you walk back to the earliest moments after your eruption and take a look around. Think about the steps you first took that ended you up were you are today. It is one way of trying to open up the mind to what might be. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xeno Posted March 3, 2005 Share Posted March 3, 2005 Spiritual things can be very good. But they should be approached carefully, it is asserted.Belief shapes the mind, even in small quantities. Be careful not to believe things that will shape you in ways you would not like....This is especially important for Novas, perhaps. The mind has more control over the meat....Additional observations are available, but probably trite and/or obvious. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sakurako Hino Posted March 3, 2005 Author Share Posted March 3, 2005 Quote:Originally posted by Jager: Endeavor, I suggest you walk back to the earliest moments after your eruption and take a look around. Think about the steps you first took that ended you up were you are today. It is one way of trying to open up the mind to what might be. I have. Quite frankly, I don't like it nor wish to divulge the details. You guys know about the sensory deprivation crap I went through. Just to find some sort of non-drug based therapy for post-eruption symptoms.Everyone knows here that the first couple of years of my Nova life were sheltered on one, and an excersize in torture in the other. I was being molded. I refused. My freedom was given, not earned.You tell me what this all means. To me is I got alot of f-ed up things I haveto come to terms with over the next few years. Stuff that has no physical solution. Only by resolving it with myself.All the mistakes I've made I can now safely say point to my earlier days. My innocence to how the world truely is. That's why I don't think I can truely create anymore. Why earthly things no longer have meaning. Only the self right now.I'm a failure as a Nova, and as a person. I got people involved in a situation I didn't have any right to ask to. I... in a way, beame worse than DS. I calculated his fate. Coldly. It was like a chess game to me, and thinking like that scares me. If anyone else died because of me... It would be on my hands. No one should be a pawn.I'm guilty of the things I accused Ronin of... Things I may have accused him wrongly of. I was projecting what I hated on another. Then I...Dammit, why am I feeling guilty for something that stopped a destructive and evil force in the world? Can someone answer me that? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jager Posted March 3, 2005 Share Posted March 3, 2005 Sometimes feeling guilty is better than not feeling anything at all.If you are ever in the place were you have to really tally up the value of someone's life compared to your own ...If ever you label someone evil then kill them, and yet have the strength of character to review that decision ...First, Last, and Always Endeavor you have to find those answers for yourself, inside yourself. No one else can help you with those kinds of questions. The best we can do is try and point the way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Magus Posted March 5, 2005 Share Posted March 5, 2005 Quote:Originally posted by Sakurako Endeavor Hino: Can someone answer me that? You derived pleasure from treating the situation as a intellectual exercise to be solved to your satisfaction. Therein lies the cause for feelings of guilt. You feel you acted from inappropriate motivation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dreamer Posted March 5, 2005 Share Posted March 5, 2005 Quote:Originally posted by Sakurako Endeavor Hino: It's about the spiritual aspect. Lately I've just been finding a need. You know, that little part of your soul that wants more than the physical. I want to understand what it is to be here, now. Who I am, and who I will be.....Anyone else got this feeling? I'm hoping it's not just me. Well, I could be wrong here. I have been known to be that, but I think you want to know the meaning of life. I think you want to know what makes the world so wonderful. I wish I could tell you, but he only real answer to question like that, are found and not given, and anything I told you would just lead you to more questions than you have right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sir Gaedel Glas Posted May 19, 2005 Share Posted May 19, 2005 Quote:Originally posted by Sakurako Endeavor Hino: Anyone else got this feeling? I'm hoping it's not just me. God's always there speakin' to ya, Child. He'll not interrupt 'til yer ready to have a sit and listen but he's there.Never understood the fascination with widgets and gadgets and whatnot. 'Tis all impressive enow but so is a mountain. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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